The Parting: A Regrettable Decision

Bob and Samantha continued dating.  While Samantha believed the relationship was deepening, Bob was not committed.  He enjoyed Samantha’s company.  He found her to be as attractive inside as outside.  As they got to know each other, their relationship became physical.  Even though her heart had softened toward God and she wanted to live a Christian life, sex had been a part of her life for many years.  Therefore, it seemed natural to have sex with someone she loved.  Bob refused. 

 

Still, Bob allowed their intimate moments to go further than he had ever gone before.  It wasn’t enough for Samantha.  On the one hand, it soothed the romantic notions of her feminine side for a man to want to wait until marriage to have sex.  However, as a woman who had had sex before, it was like never being able to reach an itch.  Consequently, she often found herself pulled in two directions.  One, she wanted Bob to give it to her.  Two, she wanted to honor Bob’s commitment to be a virgin when he married. 

 

This was a problem bubbling beneath the surface.  Due to sexual frustration, Samantha found herself being a little more aggressive when the two of them were alone and this gave Bob concern about where the relationship was going.  At the same time, it made him feel good that Samantha wanted him.  For him, it was important to be wanted and desirable to a woman.  It also fueled his manly desires for sex. 

 

After a few nights of intimacy, Bob and Samantha ended up doing everything but actual intercourse.  They were able to satisfy each other and though Samantha was relieved, Bob felt guilty.  He felt he had not merely crossed a line. He broke through a wall into a land he was not supposed to enter.  He cried as he drove home that night.  Even though he knew some of Samantha’s sexual history, he believed in his heart that he took something from her.  He also gave away something that shouldn’t have been given.  He felt so ashamed.  How he could apologize to Samantha and gain her forgiveness.